Tuesday, April 26, 2011

It seems a million years ago since these pictures were taken! I remember this day though. We were rehearsing a musical at the Saenger Theater and we were bored because our parts had not been rehearsing for a little while. Patricia Fred and I decided to take some funny pictures. I had so much fun posing with Patricia while Fred took our photos. Patricia was my best friend and loved ballet and all things musical.  I had dated Fred but cannot remember if we were still dating at this time. They were my closest friends. I look back and think wow! I was in great shape. I remember thinking how I needed to loose about 10 pounds or so for ballet. I also wanted no chest. It is funny how we are all to close to be able to see ourselves objectively most of the time. I wish I had that ability right now while I am pregnant with my sixth child. So far I have not been able to exercise as much as I have wanted because of bleeding. Now that the bleeding has stopped I plan on doing mild exercise everyday and to try not to worry about what I look like. I know I will get back into excellent shape and who knows I just might dance again en pointe. The sacrifice I am making for this baby will be worth it. I am excited to hold my newborn baby in September sometime. I am grateful to have these pictures to look back on and enjoy. To know I was capable of great things even though I did not pursue a career in ballet, that I could have and did have offers to prestigious schools. It makes me content with my life now to know I chose the more fulfilling path for me personally. No amount of applause could ever replace the sweet little arms of my children hugging me and their tiny little kisses on my cheeks. I have the best of both worlds, the ability to dance still when I can and children who fulfill my need for adoration! How lucky I am to have such a life and grateful to have been able to have children, even with the fertility problems I have had. This post has been about so much more than my dance photos but they projected down this thought path of where my life has gone and how I feel about it. Hope you enjoy my ramblings here!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

I am now 14 weeks pregnant

Here I am 14 weeks pregnant. I have gained about 8 pounds, all of it seems is fat right in my belly! I have not been exercising as much since I started to bleed earlier in my pregnancy. I have been too nervous thinking I might miscarry. I almost lost Brevan by exercising heavily when I was first pregnant with him. I do not want to have such a scare this time around. I have been feeling good mostly but some days are harder than others. I am just going to have faith that the post partum depression does not come back while I am pregnant this time. I do wonder if I will start to exercise again or if I am going to be lazy. I really need to get myself motivated to exercise. I do not want to gain all the weight I just lost back again. I find out on May 12th what we are having. I really do not care but a girl would be nice. I think Brevan might like a brother to play with, but he plays well with Lyndsey and Aliyah now. Caleb even will get down and play with Brevan on the floor still. Jakob is less likey to play what Brevan wants but includes him in big brother stuff. The children are so excited. Lyndsey especially since she is in question mode right now, keeps asking "Mom what do you think it will be?" I tell her whatever it is. She replies that she wants it to be a girl! She is dead set that it has to be a girl. She tells me that Brevan can play with a girl right mom? Aliyah wants a girl too but it does not seem to matter as much to her. The boys really have no opinion but when they pray they ask Heavenly Father for the baby just to be healthy. I have such a wonderful family! I am in such a wonderful place in life right now. I just hope I can continue to be grateful for it, when the sleepless night roll around with a newborn again. I tell Kip "how am I going to do it." He tells me he knows I can do it, since I breastfeed I am the one getting up all night not him. So far I have not had much luck with any of the kids taking a bottle when they are newborn, so I usually do not get any relief from Kip taking over until he comes home from work. Then I take a nap! He has been so wonderful taking care of our children when they are so tiny. He is such a good Daddy!

Well enough for now! It is getting late and I am tired! Till next time.

Friday, April 1, 2011


We had the best time down in SLC for springbreak! We went to the Dinosaur park and museum. They had lots of fossils and bones plus an interactive moving dinosaurs exhibit. We also went to the aquarium. We petted stingrays. We ate at Crown Burger and swam in the hotel pool. I went maternity clothes shopping but did not find much. At one place I shopped they were filming a Disney movie. We did not really look for any stars. We are not really into that, even though we love Disney movies. We had a great time getting away and doing things we do not normally get to do. A wonderful quick trip!